I told Jonathon that I was going to have his midlife crisis for him so he wasn't allowed to have one. Selfish huh? He said all he wants for his midlife crisis is a 1970's Camaro. I wish I could buy him one. That would be way more simple than me having to have his midlife crisis for him.
He is going to be 47 next month. I will be 35.
I was really excited to turn 30, and my life has improved exponentially since 30, so I am still cool with that.
I have lost something though. . .or maybe, moved on from it, let go of it, changed the way it looks. . .
Enthusiasm.
Passion.
Drive.
Focus has shifted. To what I am not so sure, I can't put my finger on it. I can't put it into words yet.
It has something to do with this though:
The key to creating godly enthusiasm isn’t the church imposing a bunch of rules and regulations on what is required of every member so that everyone is doing their “fair share.” True enthusiasm flows from a deepening appreciation for what Jesus has rescued you from personally, from a growing desire to personally express your gratitude with acts of love and service. That’s the attitude of the new person that God’s Spirit has raised up in you! (http://us2.campaign-archive2.com/?u=e384390fd2d8088d378e0755f&id=20bc7338dd)
It is from our sermon on Sunday.
I could also add, instead of "church" - "myself". In addition to "rescued you from" I could add "given you in the here and now, the trees and grass and house and children and smiles and books and flowers and people." To "acts of love and service" I would add "simple appreciation."
I think that is what motivates enthusiasm in this new me. It isn't excitement or passion or emotion or a new law or dream or goal or the old law and my ability to follow it the best. It is just simple appreciation.
For where I am.
What I already have.
The things I already know.
Who is already in my life.
What God has already done for me.
Simple appreciation.
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